Monday, February 28, 2011

Bradshaw moment.

Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. 
Without them, 
what would shape our lives? 

Perhaps if we never veered off course, 
we wouldn't fall in love, 
or have babies, or be who we are. 

After all, seasons change. 
So do cities. 
People come into your life and people go. 

But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. 
And if you're very lucky,
 a plane ride away.

- Carrie Bradshaw

under pressure/pleasure

mahirap i pursue ang Art.
lalo na as work.
kahit anung bilib mo sa sarili mo?
wala.
sasabihan ka ng ate mo na maghanap ka ng matinong trabaho.
yung tatay mo di magsasalita.
yung nanay mo  sasabihin mag ayos ka. 
sa totoo lang?
di ko to pagpapalit.
kahit minsan wala na kong makain.
or nakakalimutan ko kumain.
or wala ka ng pang inom?
hindi biro.
you'd think sometimes it would have been easier if you followed your parents.
but what the fuck.
I'm already here.
might have arrived.
I wish.
sana I get the support .
kasi once i am finished?
they will never understand why this surname went to such a great height.
cheers to your dreams and accomplishments lotho.
have more dreams, you're good at it.
ok lang yan.
lahat lahat.
ok lang yan.

Happy Birthday Indeed!!!!

BED BAR MALATE PHILIPPINES
throws us
BORN THIS GAY
THE LOTHOLOTHO BIRTHDAY EXPERIENCE
THURSDAY, MAR. 3, 2011
10:00PM ONWARDS


Sunday, February 27, 2011

Yosi Break.

Dear Pa,

hindi pa ko nakakasulat
naiiyak na ko.
miss na miss na kita.
oo, siya, corny na!
kakakain ko lang ng almusal,
kahapon buong maghapon akong hindi nakakain.
1 o 2 slice ng tinapay siguro.
Grabe.
Pagod ko.
Pag uwi ko, pucha, tumba ko sa kama.
Kakaloka.
Hayyy, sobrang miss na kita.
everyday, pag tumitingin ako sa langit,
alam mo yan,
sinasabi ko sa'yo, miss na kita
minsan pa nga pagod na ko, di ba?
birthday ko na.
every year
pag pupunta ko sa'yo ng february,
sasabihin mo, birthday mo na.
tapos tatanungin mo ko, anu plano ko.
tapos sasabihin ko, gusto ko sa hongkong.
tapos wala, tatawa ka lang.
sasabihin mo, akin na lang yung pera.
tanda ko na pa no?
grabe...
I miss watching the news with you.
I miss betting for your lottery ticket.
I miss smoking with you,
 habang nagkukuyakoy tayo ng paa.
I'm sure diyan sa heaven,
pag may nakakasalubong ka,
yun pa rin sinasabi mo,
birthday na ni Randy. :)
O sige na Pa,
pinaiiyak mo ko eh, bad trip.
yosi na lang tayo,
tapos sindi kita ng incenso, ok?
Ingat jan,
ako ok lang ako, bata pa ko
ikaw! nako!
Yosi muna ko Pa.
:)

Birthday Blues

Dear God,

Thank you for today.
Grabe, sobra pagod ko kanina.
Gising.
Linis.
Trabaho.
Divisoria.
Meeting.
Linis.
Pucha.
Pagka-uwi ko bagsak ako sa kama.
6am na, ngayon pa lang ako kakain ng almusal para sa kahapon.
Ewan.
Ok na rin.
Napagod lang talaga ko.
I'm gonna hit the shower,
papa fresh.
Salamat ulit. 


Wednesday, February 23, 2011

PUSH


There are special people in this world. 
We don't ask to be special. 
We're just born this way. 
We pass you on the streets every day, unnoticed by most. 

It started in 1945. 
The Nazis were conducting experiments in psychic warfare... 
Trying to turn those with psychic abilities into soldiers. 
Lots of us died. 

The war ended,
But the experiments never stopped. 
Other governments around the world set up what they called "Divisions"…
Trying to do what the Nazis couldn't, to turn us into weapons.
    
Division's agents are trained to track and hunt us down like animals... 
take us away from our families and friends. 
There are children stuffed away all over the world.    
They test us and categorize us. 

I'm what they call a "watcher". 
We can see the future, even if that's not always as simple as it sounds.
 The jumbo jet crashed. 
There are no reports of survivors. 

Others are called "movers", just an easy way of saying "telekinetic". 
"Pushers" put thoughts in your head and make whatever lie they come up with the truth. 
They'd already begun to control my mind... 

"Sniffs", "shifters", "shadows", "bleeders", it goes on and on. 
In Division's eyes, we're all just lab rats. 
Only one problem:
We keep dying. 

The evidence shows that the kids were given milk with radioactive iodine. 
No one has ever survived the drug meant to boost our powers. 
My name is Cassie Holmes. 
Division took my mom from me.    

Right now the future I see doesn't look so great. 
The good news is the future is always changing... in the largest of ways by the smallest of things. 
They've been winning a lot of battles. 

Now it's our turn to win the war.  

Dakota Fanning as Cassie Holmes
PUSH (2009)

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Wish

wish

there is pretty much 1 wish that I'd love to just receive.
I guess I deserve it perhaps.
It's 1 wish that everybody wishes for me.
I think so.
My sister knows it,
My Mom,
Friends,
Even my deceased father knows it.
I just hope it happens sooner.
I've tried everything I can to prove my worth,
I guess.
I do.
Even this closed door
seems to be most rewarding.
Whatever is maybe there,
that we don't know of,
I'll be fine.
I'm thinking out all of this, loud.
For Christ's sake.
Mine as well.
Beyond all these,
Don't be mislead,
I'm doing great,
I am.
Grateful, I've been more than.
I guess I just wouldn't stop dreaming of this one.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Friday, February 4, 2011

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

exactly what I'm doing. - Lotho
To be honest with myself,
I do hate goodbyes.
But then I know,
That a lot of doors just opened.
and here's to me,
end of 2010.
It has been quite a year.

Happy Chinese New Year.

I know I'm kinda strange, to you sometimes
Don't always say, what's on my mind
You know that I've been hurt, by some guy
But I don't wanna mess up this time


(BRIDGE)
And I really really really care
And I really really really want you
And I think I'm kinda scared
'cause I don't want to lose you
If you really really really there
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you


(CHORUS)


My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged


I might look through your stuff, for what I don't wanna find
Or I might just set you up, to see if you're all mine
I'm a little paranoid, from what I've been through
Don't know what you got yourself into


And I really really really care (And I care about you so much)
And I really really really want you (I really do want you)
And I think I'm kinda scared (But I'm scared with every touch)
'cause I don't want to lose you ('cause I don't want to lose you)
If you really really really there (If you care for me like you say)
Then maybe you can hang through (Then maybe you can hang through)
I hope you understand (I hope you understand)
It's nothing to you (It's nothing to you, you)


My heart's at a low (low)
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that (I think you should know)
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love (I'm falling in love)
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged (I think you should know that)


My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage (I'm so much to manage)
I think you should know that (I think you should know that)
I've been damaged (I've been damaged)
I'm falling in love (I love you so)
There's one disadvantage (I love you so)
I think you should know that I've been damaged


And I really really really want you
And I think I'm kinda scared
'cause I don't want to lose you
If you really really really there
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you (It's nothing to you)


My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that (Ooh I think you should know I've been damaged)
I've been damaged (I've been damaged baby)
I'm falling in love (Falling in love with you baby, yeah)
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged


My heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know that
I've been damaged
I'm falling in love
There's one disadvantage
I think you should know that I've been damaged

Damaged - TLC