The Oscars/ Velvet Tribute.

I'm a man who is afraid of too much lights.

It blinds you.

As even before, thus was told by Jose Rizal's

The Moth and the Candle.

Just this March 4, 2010

Ayala Museum, Velvet Channel has staged their 2nd Annual Oscars Tribute.

Amongst anything else that whole day, 

I did nothing but pray.

And I made it.  Seriously made it.

Friends RCXY & SuperStarlet asked me yesterday,

You didn't get the Gold man.

Certainly, I never did get Gold, I got MORE; I said.

I got the Bronze.

I got the Dymanic Duo (Best Actors) Award.

Lastly: Best Photographer.

That was 3, in 1 night, in the 2nd year.

Happy, Proud, Humbled by a fame,

That I've coveted for.

What is that exactly?

The 1st Back to Back Winning Stylist.

That is when I say,

"A PICTURE OF A THOUSAND WORDS"

I hate, hate, hate to brag.

But I never knew such things can happen to me.

Actually, all of these?

This is not I want for me. I need, yeah.

I wanted to win.

So I can validate myself.

From being 1 of THE TEN TERNO's of Metropolitan Museum then,

Now,

I got Gold in Asian Food Channel's Food Styling Competition 2009

I got Silver for Ayala Museum's 2009 Competition

I got Bronze and 2 special awards this year's Ayala Museum Competition 2010.

I never fail myself; 

that makes me, my friends, my family, and mentors better.

Funny how people think I'm not in love.

Then... How could I have won... :)

Friends, I bring you my latest Piece De Resistance: THE TITANIC

 

FYI: I hate Titanic! Major!

Inspiration: The Old Rose in the movie, she left me a phrase,

"IT WAS THE SHIP OF DREAMS"

fin.

FREE F/ALL. 7 OF 7

I have 3 more hours,
and then,
I am officially, luckily,
preparedly, 30 years old.

"Forrest Gump"in'...
That's what I thought life is.
A pure thread of luck,
A shore of blessings,
A sky high...
That no matter how vast a dream,
Get it managed.

Hard?  Yeah...
Tired?  Maybe for my age I should be, I am a milestone.
Frustrations?  None, Driven, in fact.

Yeah, It's amazing when you've reached that vast,
yet your ideals are still the basic.
that way, you never frustrate,
I've had all my goals done,
mostly,
everybody probably knows what the "Dream of Lotho" is,
And that is Another Hard Road.
I am very oh-you-don't-have-an-idea,
Guess I'm ready for the Ocean.

I will miss being a 20 something shoring.
But I won't miss being 30, and Something, and Shoring...


And I hope,
that in the mists of Dreams,
We meet at some point,
However triumphant,
or even in the deepest shit.
That would be better than a dream.


We wanna know the reasons,
the secret,
the answers at the back of the book,
at the end of the day,
despite what differences are,
the fact we're there,
no matter what you believe,
is actually reason enough,
to keep believing...


DREAM. 7th


Dance... ;)

FREE F/ALL. 6 OF 7

8 hours left,
and they call it "The Big 30".
Yes, I have been counting days.
And never realized till now...

Destiny...
What are you thinking now?

Of my 7 part entry, this one's hazy.
Death.
Destruction.
Delirium.
Despair.
Desire.
Then there is Destiny.
and then, Daniel.

You make your own destiny.
Least that's what they say.
I guess we do,
Because after all,
The man writing this down,
Came all the way from a motherfuckin' sick place called Tondo.
Never said I did not love it there.
You should have lived there when you had your chance.
Living like a rat?
Smelling like one and you don't even fucking know it.

Raised by a single Mom who left for HongKong when I was 6,
I totally have no clue how to live.
I simply watched everyone.
My Dad hated me then.
But he knew what I was to do.
Looking at it now,
It seemed he knew my Destiny then,
But he was taking chances with my other brothers.

So I did make my own Destiny,
as I seek, they watched.
thus we shall.
There might be a movie I can relate to.
It would be easier.
Perhaps Dogville is more I like it,
But I pretty presume you all have watched Slumdog Millionaire.

Currently, I am creating 2 demons more in my head,
They will help me mold the Destiny.
I'm no psycho for nothing, christ's sake.
That is my Destiny.
There is something I am working,
People think you're crazy,
And then one day you will just say fine.
You live with your demons,
Just let 'em enjoy your ride.


I know what I want.
And I go for it.
It was complex, and hard.
But I never fucked anyone.
That is just what I know.
least.

A happy destiny.
just that.
what comes with the word "Happy",
You don't have any fuckin, heaven's sake Idea.
LOL. ;O

DESTINY is the 6th part. 1 last fucking entry and I am burstingly happy I did this thing. ;0

music:

FREE F/ALL. 4-5 OF 7

hmmm.
its the 4th entry.
funny it would seem,
because the 4th is its own 5th.

Despair... ever seen, ever familiar?
Take a look at an image of Despair.
No, not me! I mean the internet.
Fat, Bare-naked, Black Iris...

At fine points,
Despair is cool, just as is.
One day you'd be.
You will Despair.
For a love.
For a laughter.
For a life.
And if ever you think Despair is tragic?
No.
Despair is there, naturally an Endless.
The comedy is that, Despair.
Is.

Desire.
You're desperate.
To love.
To live.
To laugh.
is it a sad thing?
No.
Because all is as Desire too.

And it keeps you forward when you desire.
Take it all from your despair.
Because,
You have just got to live with it.

As Despair as Desire,
Desire as thy heart wants.
Desire feels warm.
Desire is hot...
Desire is the feel of your palms pressed...
It soothes all of us.


Think of what is your hearts Desire.
Sometimes, I see yours, and in fact,
It might just be the nicest, natural,
Most beautiful whatever shit you find fun.
That's just maybe, I dunno,
what makes you, hmmm,
.......,
amazing,
or kick-ass, huh? :)

Makes you sure feel so cool,
like it how it's hot.

This is the 4th and 5th: Despair - Desire