Dec. 29, 2012

It will almost be 8 months now since I left my country.
I didn't really point out it's home, i'm not certain about that fact.

Around 3 days ago,
I watched Life of Pi alone.
I was chasing after some demon and I thought that inside the theatre,
it would be much easier for me to confine him.
Guess everything is going to happen as it is, as it was
and how exactly things should happen have happened.

The movie made a lot of sense for me,
Or maybe it was just me.
Pi was alone in most of his adventures & misadventures.
He never had a family,
as Pi would say, "His family was taken away from him".
it's hard to not have them around, in a way maybe none of you would feel.
You seem to feel lost, but you try to believe you are not,
Because there isn't anybody to tell you your way,
nor anybody to agree that you are lost.

It makes you the strongest person alive.
It makes you alive.

It's funny, how soul searching is never ending,
Nor finding one's true self.
One's real nature.
And it's even hilarious that people seem to say the answer is just there.

My trials and hardships are far from over.
My dream hasn't surfaced to reality.
My life is still a spectacle for everybody to witness.
I ain't far from over, which as I have mentioned
As it is should have been should happen,
At least I seem to think it is.

There are reasons that keep me intact,
They're fascination about the life they are witnessing keeps them part of the story.
Until they see this story become as happy as it deserves,
they won't stop.  It is worth it.

You could sink,
But you could also swim.